not being alone is overrated
when you start remembering the past as the good old days
when you float away from yourself
when you stop watching movies at dawn
when you don’t have any strangers to love
when instead of greeting the sunrise every day, you find yourself in an ordinary-square-grownup’s wet dream
you are not growing up, you are dying
i am
six years ago, on a july morning, i decided i wanted to marry you, so i will never have to spend another july morning without you
i haven’t spent any july mornings since